It’s been a while since my last post…  A lot has changed.  Back on my last post I was struggling with capturing time to myself.  I was competing with work, family, friends and really needing time to myself to explore what I really wanted to do; like writing a book (been wanting to do that for 20 years).  Well priorities have a way of changing regardless of your ability to control why…

Most recently my job as an IT professional was eliminated due to “downsizing”.  BAD for me, since it’s been two months since it happened and I’m still looking for a job in a dry market.  GOOD for the board of directors of the company I used to work for because they don’t feel the pain that I and my family are feeling.  I know, I know… they have risk too, but I can assure you, their risk is FAR less than mine.  In as much, the cushion they have financially is much greater than my meager income for a few months.  Let me tell you, a few months FLY BY when you’re a job seeker.

Yes, I’m disgruntled and a little pissed over it still.  Even so, it still amazes me now that I literally sacrificed remarkable amounts of personal time with my family while traveling for the company and I regularly worked 50-60 hours a week even while not traveling and it simply didn’t amount to jack squat in the end.  Except however, to teach me a very painful lesson: no matter how much of yourself you give to a company, including great performance, in the end it will simply boil down to numbers and if you’re one of the higher paid, you’re highly vulnerable when things are tight.  As was my case apparently, or someone had an axe to grind; who knows.  The fact is, when a company hits the skids, we’re all vulnerable.

What this little diatribe acheives is VENTING; for MY benefit.  The raw fact here is someone else out there in ‘net wonderland’ has gone through this kind of bullshit before and I need help in getting through it.  I’m beginning to learn the true value of community and I can’t think of a better way to “pull in reinforcements” than this here little blog.

Thanks ahead for any insight.  If you’re offended by some slant I’ve mentioned, read something else and be happy.

Cheers.